How to keep the Happy

Today I did my first job application in nearly two years.

It was like flexing old muscles, tight and sore, but once loosened they are ready for a jig.

The language of business, came out of me like I had been at work yesterday, all there tucked away not forgotten, just hiding.

But, I am not going to lie. I have mixed feelings about this, I am applying for a part time job as the rest of the time I will be a student, studying for my Masters Degree. Am I going to be able to do both? Yes, the job I have applied for would have less demands on me than my previous roles but it would still be demanding and I would want to give it my all.

I only know how to give my all, I have never really understood how someone can come to work and only half do the thing, what's the point, you are there, make the most of it, by giving your all you have pride in what you do and a pride in yourself.

And I am nervous about starting my degree, I haven't studied for 30 years, this is going to be a real shock to the system.

Chances are I won't even get an interview, never mind be offered the job, so I am not sure why I am worrying.

I don't really know why I am surprised that all that business speak came flooding back, it's the language I have spoken for the last 25 years. Its who I was, but is it who I want to be, going forward? I don't know, I have changed A LOT in the last 2 years.

I have felt free, relaxed, happy. I have felt healthier than I have in years, I have had loads less money, but still been OK and got by. I feel like I have made a stronger connections with my children. I feel like I know what they want, need and care about. I have spent more time with my husband.

I have been really happy.

And I don't want to mess it up, but financially, I have to be realistic, I have to do something part time. But what? I liked the look of the job I applied for, so maybe that, but if not something else. Something that doesn't interfere with my happy. Got to keep my happy.

To be continued.......

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